(no subject) @ 11:28 pm
I hate when I see somebody, like in the grocery store, or whatever, and I think, gee, why don't I break tradition and make eye contact and murmur something friendly, but then I only smile with my mouth, and never let it reach my eyes. Why fucking bother? I feel so completely...artificial when I do that, it's abhorrent. I like the feeling I get when I actually smile at somebody, especially when they actually smile back, but that half ass crap just pisses me off at myself. My order from Southern Ordnance shipped today! Yay!