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July 24th, 2008(no subject) @ 06:53 pmbitwise:Note to self: go and see The Presets at the Fine Line on Sept 16. Kansas City people get them on the 15th.
1 quick witted retort | Fuck you, Clown! grateful for poetry @ 06:53 pm![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/syndicated.gif){kind=small} cygnoirnet:Exultant, drunk with the little victories:
remembering to bring a homemade muffin only slightly less glorious than right out of the oven, flashing my usually-cloistered bus pass to prove my city citizenship, consolidating paper trails into one gleaming paper superhighway. The hangover is quick, severe.
Blurry comes into focus with a “fuck you bitch” and I am at work. Because this is how it is in the building of books and lost people. We who work here are the serfs, and all the jesters are kings. – Halsted Mencotti Bernard (This entry is part of one month of gratitude.)         grateful for being alone @ 07:43 pmcygnoirnet:This is a subject I have struggled with for most of my life, so it is a challenge to write about it in terms of gratitude. However, I don’t want this exercise to solely be about enumerating all these fantastic things that anyone would be ridiculous not to want. Over the years, I have sought out solitude, preferring relationships, friendships, careers and hobbies with a high degree of low maintenance. I have thought of myself as a loner and an introvert, and always questioned my ability to be around anyone else for more than short periods at a time. “I never have enough alone time” became my psychological motto and mantra. Some of this is still true, but some things have changed for me internally, and I owe the change in part to living alone last year. Initially, I was happy to have my own space and my own schedule. I was also so withdrawn from interaction that I would hyperbolize any communication from the outside world. “I don’t want to talk on the phone right now” would turn into “I hate you and never want to speak with you again” and “I miss hanging out with you” would turn into “you’re a bad friend and never there for me when I need you” … you get the idea. To remain sane, I forced myself to do a lot of recalibration, some of which is still taking place, about belief and trust. I also forced myself to be more social than I had ever been, and discovered that I actually enjoyed it. Old perceptions of myself were sloughed off, and although I still recharge by staying home instead of going out, I go out twice as much. Nowadays, I get plenty of alone time all day long; despite working in a building full of people, and commuting on a train full of people, I have remarkably few connections in a usual workday. Information is exchanged, but that’s it. By the time I get home from work, my energy is depleted but I usually don’t want to be alone. My next recalibration will be adjusting to more alone time than I need without backsliding into old anti-social habits. (This entry is part of one month of gratitude.)         (no subject) @ 12:18 pmbitwise:I know this is a long shot, but does anyone have a favorite art-framing shop they'd want to recommend? I have a few prints that really deserve proper frames. Reasonable prices are a plus. (no subject) @ 01:06 pmldygabilan:Current Mood: full
You always think grease is going to make you feel better.. but it doesn't. It makes you feel worse. It might be a good time to introduce bulimia into my life, though. Ya know, to keep busy. We found a place to live! @ 11:31 amchatty:We decided a while back that we were going to try and move from where we are currently living to something larger. We wanted a house really badly, but they were always so expensive, but (I think) because the selling market is so horrible right now, more houses are going up for rent, letting rent prices drop as well. We found a perfect house and were recently told that our application was accepted and will (officially) have the house held for us when we turn in our security deposit. Now, it is going to take us a few days to put the money together, but very soon we will have it, put it down, then we will be moving into an awesome place! Most places we have looked at were what you would call a fixer-upper, but this place is an actual house! It has just about every ammenity we could want! Attached two car garrage, washer and dryer hook-ups, living room AND family room AND dining room AND eat-in kitchen. Fenced yard. Right next to a gorgeous park with BIG play structures. Great neighborhood (it is a classic suburbia neighborhood, not busy streets at all, important with the kids), great schools since Quinten is starting kindergarten. The place is awesome. It is 3 bed, 2.5 bath. Can't wait to move in. Should be able to move the last week of August, with big moving day on the 30th. It is so exciting, I can actually have people sleep at our place when they come into town, there will be plenty of space! (no subject) @ 10:48 amldygabilan:Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: "Dream Brother" - Jeff Buckley
I'm on a down swing today.. Concerts. My brain is exploding. @ 11:27 pmgleemie:Current Mood:
 excitedI'm a little overwhelmed right now. Notwist is coming to LA end of October. I saw them 5 years ago or something they were amazing. M83 is coming to Costa Mesa (!!! 7 miles from Irvine!) Sept 20th. (So I was planning on being in Iran at the time, but I think both of my tripmates are ducking out because of the political situation. I can still ask my mom to come with me, but it is kinda f*ed up that I'm like Iran v M83...not sure which to pick!) Rancid is playing for a week in LA in early October. Stereolab is playing in LA mid-October. Detour festival (featuring Mae Shi, who I love) is early October. What the hell is going on? And who is coming with me?? (Terry, twicemostly, gyrate, invisibleinque I'm at least looking at you fine so cal folks.)(no subject) @ 12:14 amldygabilan:Current Mood: thoughtful
One of the hardest things for me to do is let people dislike me in anyway. I understand why it has to happen... and I accept it silently (for the most part) but it still sucks knowing that people are seeing me as THAT girl now. Although, most of me is grateful that mrfurious has such wonderful friends that will rush to his side in his time of need. It would be far worse to know that he was alone in this... I'm so glad he's not. From what I have seen, though, people have been pretty tame but I can see that some of them are biting their tongues quite a bit. Again, not that I blame them... it just isn't fun for me. I hope people don't think I'm just partying it up hardcore these past 3-4 days. I'm pretty miserable, actually. July 23rd, 2008Final countdown @ 07:31 pmglobetrotter1:Current Location: sofa
Current Mood:
 cheerfulTwo work days to go before my vacation, squee! I simply cannot wait. It'll be nice to get away from the stupid job. I just checked the weather forecast... nothing but rain. Sigh. I predict many games of Scrabble and entertaining the nephews and nieces. It would also be nice to catch up on my sleep but hell, who am I kidding? Of course, we all know vacation = shopping raid, so I managed to find a few things with the help of a co-worker. It all became a bit surreal at the office when I found myself showing off my clothing to 4 of my co-workers (including the boss). I didn't mean it to happen like that, I was just showing them to one person only but what can I say, she is loud. Heh. It's strange because I never ask to see what my co-workers buy. Also, I am impressed with myself because a) I hate shopping and b) I hate shopping with other people. Yet I managed to buy 3 pairs of capris and 3 tops in the company of a co-worker. How about that. The headquarters' building was sold and we are moving later this year... to a mall! Well, to the offices above the mall (Eaton Centre). I hope I don't end up spending all my paychecks there. Just received an invitation to a party I don't want to attend. Sigh. Why must life be so complicated? ;-) And that's about it. I just want this week to end. ETA: my nephew threw a fit today and told his parents they were bad parents and that he was packing and going to find himself better parents. His mother said, "Perhaps you should hurry, it's nearly dark now", so he said he would leave tomorrow morning. The thing is, his dad did the exact same thing when he was 7 or 8. Packed and left for a little bit, then came home. Hee! a bad thing @ 02:52 pmrmalena:Ladies and Gentlemen, I have spent this morning engaged in a Bad Thing. My obsession has overcome me, and I have gone on the search for goggles, boots, gloves, and a lab coat worthy of Dr. Horrible. After a couple hours of searching through medical catalogs, I decided to check the fan site where they have already done the work for me. Turns out that Dr. Horrible wears these goggles, these gloves, and these boots. And these are all vaguely verifiable. The coat is another story. Since Joss Whedon wanted to keep production costs down, he reused some things. The rumor is that the actual coat is leftover from the hospital episode in Firefly where Simon wears a similar coat. Hours and hours of searching the internet by fanatical cosplayers (and just regular geeks like me) has not found a suitable subsitute. But they are working on it. I just need someone to sew one for me. Anyway, since everyone is going crazy trying to get these goggles, Morton Safety, who sells the goggles and boots, has been totally swamped with orders and they started to freak out, wondering why in the world all these people were buying at an individual level. Fearing some sort of fraud, they called one of the buyers who explained the situation. Hours later, I find another bit of information from Morton Security. This may or may not be true. Edit: Seems that the post was written by Allen Bergles himself on the Dr. Horrible fansite. The internet ROCKS. Hello Horribleist… This is Allen Bergles, General Manager of Morton Safety. We are honored to be the site of choice to honor Dr. Horrible. We are putting together a deal and we are going to be giving a discount when you purchase the whole costume. Goggles, Boots, Lab Coat and Black Gloves. We have not determinded the exact amount but it will be there by morning 7-24-08. Thank you all for your interest Allen Bergles General Manager Morton Safety After checking their site, they don't have the best lab coat situation and the gloves are the wrong color. Even so, if they happen to create a Howie-style lab coat that looks similar... oh man, the possibilities are endless. Although if they do this tomorrow, I will have to cancel my orders of everything and get their bundle. Did I mention I was doing a Bad Thing today? Final update (I hope): If you go and check the Morton Safety website, you can look over on the right side at the Hot Items. Guess what the top two are? That's right. We are a force to be reckoned with. (no subject) @ 09:18 amsylvia101:Current Location: cube
Current Mood:
 um...um...let's see. what's happening. honestly not much of note. for the second morning in a row i am awake but feeling unusually groggy, even though i slept fine. yesterday it wore off around 10:30, i'm hoping for the same today. things have picked up at work, and i'm enjoying being busier. i gave my first solo behind the scenes tour yesterday, and i think it went well. we saw hellboy on friday night, and it was...not good. It started out ok, but kind of lost it's way and could have used about 20 minutes of editing. j fell asleep for the first time ever in a movie, which was kind of adorable. we have avoided the Dark Knight hype so far, but did check out the Gotham Knight animated film, which was great. we will probably hit imax next week. oscar the cat is doing better. he's eating steadily and getting some of his personality back. i'm a little nervous about going away and leaving him this weekend, but we will have a cat sitter and it is only 2 days. fingers crossed. i had a nice quiet night at home last night. long commute home, dinner, a little tv, a little wii, reading, painting, showering, sleeping. so nice. we are going to michigan this weekend to visit j's family and go to a wedding reception for cityjess and berzi. i am looking forward to all of it. plus, 4 day work week. yeah. i've got nothing really. blah dee blah. The funniest thing I have seen today @ 08:02 amgrateful for family @ 06:56 amcygnoirnet:This is another one of those topics that, as a younger person, I would have called a “no duh”. Of course I am grateful for my family! Through luck I am related to a whole bunch of terrific people, especially my parents. (Neither one likes being in photographs, or I would post them here.) I owe much of who I am to my parents; without their influence, support, and genetics, I (or at least the “I” I know of as myself) would not exist. My parents are very different people, but they have some key similiarities. Both are extremely intelligent, charming, and interesting. Both are college professors. Both are good advisors and listeners. And, despite friction between us at times, both have committed to having mature relationships with me. I simply would not want anyone else as my mom and dad. Fortunately, I am an only child, so I never have to share them! (This entry is part of one month of gratitude.)         flightless @ 11:20 pmrmalena:Tonight was Week 1, Day 2 of running, and since it was half as much as yesterday, it was a total cakewalk. However, I have to report on the negative effects of age upon my body. My back hurts? What the hell is that? Also, I've got fun things happening in my right knee and both my feet. Here's hoping continued exercise will overcome minor aches and pains. Day 2 isn't really that incredible for me. I often decide to do something, and see it through for a little while. However, if it hasn't been made abundantly clear in the duration of our friendship/readership, I am a super Gemini with the attention span of a two year old. I have roughly 50 different interests at any point in time, and it is pretty much a coin toss as to which one I will move on to next. Here's hoping I can turn running into a routine like showering and pooping, so I can lose the ability to move on and will be forced to do it forever. Just like pooping. What else. In Rock Band, I have beaten hard by the skin of my teeth, and I have unlocked every song in Expert mode except for one. What horror is holding me back from achieving my goal? Timmy and the Lords of the Underworld. I hate Timmy. Scratch that. I hate South Park coming up with a song that is so hard to play I maybe hit three notes out of twenty. Anyway, after that it's just trying to get some decent scores so I actually feel like I'm good at the game. If you liked watching Wanted, then you should watch the director's earlier movie Night Watch. And if you've watched that and the sequel and are patiently waiting for the final movie to come out, you need to track down the books that started it all. The four books by Sergei Lukyanenko that share pretty much the same names as the movies (Nightwatch, Daywatch, Twilightwatch, and Final Watch) are being translated into English and released by Miramax Books. The last one won't be done until January, but I was a big fan of the other books. It's similar enough to the movies that it has the feel and characters you want to read about, but the movies really took some liberties with the writing. If you liked the movies, you will be surprised. If you haven't seen the movies, you should ask to borrow my copies. Also, I want to mod this somehow. Being alone scares me @ 01:00 amldygabilan:Current Mood: worried
It always has, since I was a baby. I think that's part of the issue with my entire existence. It bothers me that I find it very hard to be alone and it's definitely what brought me home from Tampa. This time it is voluntary, so you'd think it would be easier but I don't think it is. I am just dealing with it much differently. In Tampa, I was scared to be at home by myself but going out seemed to make things much worse. I just wanted to go to a safer place and ignore my fears without ever trying to conquer them, so I didn't and I came back. Now I really have an intense desire to go out. I went to dinner and movie tonight after class with gena_bobena, cstella23, mookieguy and other Eric. It was fun, we saw The Dark Knight which is a good movie but seeing Heath Ledger made me uneasy a lot mostly because he was so clearly a genius and now he's gone. But, I digress. As soon as I started to make my way to my car, apart from my friends, my stomach sank. I did not want to come here. I knew it would be lonely and it would be quiet. It is. And every creek is haunting me. The difference between then and now is that I've developed a bit of a wine habit within the past 3 days. In Tampa I just would stay awake all night wondering what is going to happen or how I will cope. The wine is silencing those fears but it's making me about 20 times more emotional. This has to be what is best for me or else I would've continued to silence those thoughts. But, I can't help but wonder what this means about myself. Who am I? What type of person does this to another just for selfish reasons? I've almost literally made someone homeless and I'm in our home, drinking wine, and boo-hooing over creeks? There must be a reason for all of this. I can't just be an insane girl... I need to find justification somewhere. Because right now, I just appear to be drunk and lost and this is NOT the person I expected to be at 25. At all. July 22nd, 2008Perl on App Engine @ 08:38 pmbrad:Fellow Perl hackers, I'm happy to announce that the Google App Engine team has given me permission to talk about a 20% project inside Google to to add Perl support to App Engine. To be clear: I'm not a member of the App Engine team and the App Engine team is not promising to add Perl support. They're just saying that I (along with other Perl hackers here at Google) are now allowed to work on this 20% project of ours out in the open where other Perl hackers can help us out, should you be so inclined. As background, I've been writing Perl code for almost 15 years now and quite fond of the language. (I'm "bradfitz" on CPAN.) Here at Google, though, it's not one of our big languages so I don't get to write as much Perl as I used to. I'd still like to run my personal web apps on App Engine, though, and I'd like to write them in Perl. And I'm definitely not alone, looking at how many people have starred the wishlist bug. Some of you have already started talking about it. We'd like to join the discussion, and start hacking out in the public. In the process we can build the start of an open source App Engine server clone that's suitable for many purposes: initially just for regression testing & local development (like the "dev_appserver" that comes with the App Engine Python SDK), but perhaps in the future (once Hypertable/Hbase/etc are ready) a full stack to give to ISPs to let them run App Engine apps on their own. Before I get into my proposed roadmap, let me describe what's publicly known about the App Engine architecture. In a nutshell, it looks like this:  The App runs in a multi-layer hardened environment, one layer of which will need to be a hardened Perl interpreter. Basically, we need a hardened Perl runtime which can:
Perl on App Engine then would involve the following steps (in no particular order):
If you'd like to discuss this and/or help out, join the perl-appengine mailing list. We'll be submitting code to the appengine-perl project on Google Code hosting. For more information about this, see the Perl-on-AppEngine FAQ. Brad & the other Perl Googlers grateful for iPhone @ 06:18 amcygnoirnet:Tonight I am grateful for my iPhone, because not only can I use it as my phone, digital music player, and PDA, I can lounge around in places that are not in front of my computer and use WordPress for iPhone to post entries like this one. Unfortunately, they are not very long entries. (This entry is part of one month of gratitude.)         (no subject) @ 02:11 pm | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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